FRAUD!

For the past several weeks I have been feeling like such a fraud. I am sitting in countless 2009 planning meetings with the biggest secret just wanting to burst from my lips. I am trying to focus on all the elements that need to go into a comprehensive portal strategy and all the while I am dying to say - "but I won't be here". Don't get me wrong - I do actually care (a great deal) that the right portal strategy gets developed and put into place - I want to have a great program to come back to. But at the moment... there are some other pressing issues on my mind.

This is a really strange feeling for me. I am usual pretty good about being able to compartmentalize information. But as the days roll past I am feeling like my secret is developing into a lie. I keep checking my forehead for the words "fraud" or "liar".

It is really really tough to be planning programs with my direct team. They are an amazing dedicated group (you know who you are) and I am going to rock their world with my news.

I have decided that I can't wait much longer. The Rogers policy says I need to give at least 4 weeks notice for a Leave of Absence. I can't wait that long - nor do I think it would put me in good standing with anyone I need to remain in good standing with. I think that 2-3 months is more appropriate, especially when you consider some of that time will be over the Holiday season.

So here is goes... the truth will come out on Oct 30, 2008. Cross your fingers (and toes if you have the flexibility), send me all your good thoughts and pray my karma is in the black on that day.

God - I hope I don't cry ... or worse... puke!