And the questions roll In

Last night as I slipped between my clean crisp sheets and pull my duvet up to my chin to guard against the fall chill, I was struck with another wave of "What the hell are you doing?". This has been happening a lot lately, especially when I am enjoying the comforts of a lifestyle I have worked hard to achieve.

Again today, I staved off the annoying questions racing through my head as I went for a long walk along the waterfront. I was strolling along in the sunshine with my music flowing in my headphones helping me keep up a healthy pace, when I was struck by the litany of "Are you really sure you know what you are doing?", "Can't you 'find your passion' closer to home?", "Do you really need to throw in your job, condo, car, and God knows what else next year?".

I am getting better and better at calming myself down and letting these thoughts slip smoothly out of my mind as quickly as they come. This is not the first time I have questioned my future plans. In fact, if I look back at my "big decision moments" in my life, they have all come with this kind of self inquisition. I have come to see this time as a good bell weather to help me pinpoint areas of the plans that I may have not given enough consideration to or ensure I have all my tasks well thought out.

This time around I seem to be more at ease with the onslaught of questions. Maybe it is because I expect many of you to ask me the very same questions and if I can quiet the biggest critic of them all, ME, then I can handle anything you throw my way.

So bring it on! Just be prepared for a long - well thought out answer. After all, I have been rehearsing the scripts in my head for months.